A new year a new me
By Samantha Leith | January 19, 2012
Well that’s what I’m aiming for. Not a new me exactly – I like me, but a new outside.
How have I been? Where have I been?
Well I pretty much gave up for the last couple of months last year. I prenteded I was ok to everyone around me. Inside I was crap. Complete crap. I cried at the drop of a hat. I missed my father so much. I was so ashamed that I let the dramas of the year stop me from achieving my goals. I was disappointed that I had allowed myself to stop working on my business.
Maybe I just needed to ‘be’. I don’t know, and probably never will. It just is what it is.
So where am I now? Well I’m back from an amazing holiday in the USA with my gorgeous daughter. 3 1/2 weeks of no crap to deal with and just to enjoy each other and where we were (New York, LA and Hawaii). I feel energised but I have a touch of the post holiday blues.
Did I put on weight while I was away? I don’t know. I’m too scared to get on the scales. My neighbours both said I looked like I had lost weight, and some clothes feel a bit baggier ….. but in the back of my mind I have that voice that tells my I put on some. Anyway, I’ll know when I go back to Gabriela next week. I’ve just done my menu plan and shopping list for the week, so I can stick to healthy eating. The qym is in my diary, and I’m going to throw out all that left over chocolate when I get home!!!!
I ate as healthily as I could while I was away – found a new friend in a Cobb Salad (dressing on the side). It amazed me how much good and cheap produce you could buy. Especially if you are trying to stay away from bad carbs, the egg white products in the supermarkets were amazing, and the fruit – huge punnets of blackberries for $5. Loved them for breakfast with yoghurt. We also walked and walked and walked – which I enjoyed so much (even with a sprained ankle), that I bought myself a new pair of walking sneekers and I’m determined to walk every lunch time (listening to a good book as I go).
Do I feel that I have let myself and the kind people that were reading this blog down? Absolutly. But I can’t go back and change any of it. I can promise though that my phrase for 2012 is NO EXCUSES. My focus is Fitness – Physical, spiritual and financial.
So Project 2012 is with us. Part of my fitness and spiritual sucess will be with this blog. So please accept my apologies for not having continued last year and join me as I kick my own (getting smaller) butt this year (and forever more).
A couple of people have suggested a bit of a Facebook group to share some accountability, so I might look at adding that also.
See you next time……in the meantime this song is now back as my ringtone and alarm in the mornings. Enjoy.
Gabriella Cilmi – On A Mission
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My father died and I fell to pieces
By Samantha Leith | October 27, 2011
Yes, that’s what happened. Organised, efficient, multi tasking Sam – fell to pieces.
I’ve forgotten lunches, turned up at wrong times, not made much of an effort in life and well, generally been sad. Not depressed, just sad, and there is a difference. As someone who once attempted suicide many years ago, I do understand the difference. I think the biggest oops, was thinking my daughter’s birthday party started at 1pm, when it started at 11am. I was at the shops getting some last minute things, and my mum and daughter were in thier pj’s when everyone started arriving. All was well and the kids had a great time, but I realised my mind has really not been here.
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Sometimes it’s ok not to share
By Samantha Leith | September 21, 2011
So what’d been going on (or off hopefully)……well my hip is just disastrous….this is what’s wrong with it.
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Dreams
By Samantha Leith | September 4, 2011
Why is it, when you tell some people your plans they just look at you as though you have horns growing out of your head???
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Mummy, why don’t you want a husband?
By Samantha Leith | September 2, 2011
‘Mummy why don’t you want a husband?” How on earth do you answer that? In the car on the way to school. I said some such rubbish like, not knowing anybody I wanted to marry. How can you say to a child (you can’t) when you can barely admit the reasons to yourself.
So lets’ look at a couple of the reasons……
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