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Charting success
By blogadmin | January 28, 2008
Well, I’m down over 12kgs now – people say that is fantastic. But when you have 50kg still to go it doesn’t seem that amazing.
People want to know what ‘diet’ I’m on. I have forbidden that word. I’m on a healthy eating plan, and if that means I can have chocolate and wine sometimes then chances are I’ll be able to change for good.
I did have a very emotional day the other day. OK, to be honest I had a COMPLETE meltdown. My 2yr old decided that it was the day she was going to push every single button to see how far she could push me. When I realised I wanted to eat and drink anything and leave her in the park as I truly didn’t think I could be her mother anymore as I was such a failure…it was time to call for help. I thank whatever force it is out there that gave me the strength and knowhow to pick up the phone and say HELP!!!!!! Some days it is really hard being a single mum, but I’m not the only one on the planet and my daughter and I will survive our ‘moments’.
Why is it that nature makes me think I’m the failure if my daughter has a tantrum – I know it’s something that 99.9% of toddlers do, yet I truly believed that I could add motherhood to the ever growing list of things I have failed at.
My brain just misses that whole logic thing sometimes.
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