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Weekly Therapy
By blogadmin | February 7, 2008
I’m glad I go to see my doctor once a week. I know it’s not forever, but it will change me forever. See, I can be positive. I know that I will fix all these issue and I will stop reaching for something when I am happy, sad, angry – pick an excuse any excuse.
Today we talked lots on me getting back out there….dating!!!! What a scary thought. I have had partners when I have been this size, but for some reason now I am so repulsed by how I see myself that I can’t imagine anyone wanting to go out with me. I’m not just talking about the size of my arse, it’s the whole package. How I look, act, react, communicate, feel – it’s a long list.
When my confidence drops many things follow. I dress down, I wear less makeup, I let the house get a little more messy, I leave the dishes for a day, I don’t return phone calls etc etc etc. All of these things, then in turn make me feel worse about myself.
I don’t want to be the person that lets a word make me stay at home when I could be out enjoying all the amazing things this life has to offer.
I don’t take any medication for depression as I’m not depressed. I have depressive episodes, but I think we all do to some extent. Believe it or not I’m actually happy at the moment. I truly believe that I will overcome these hurdles and be the great mother, lover, friend, partner, sibling, child, business owner that I want to be. This place is full of opportunity, I just need to knock on the door a little more often.
I am a great believer in therapy, and I believe that people should not be allowed to be medicated without some form of therapy. I know so many people that became part of that Prozac Nation culture and truly believed a magic pill would fix everything. Medication does wonderful things for people suffering with depression or forms of mental illness. They are true ailments, just like chicken pox and people should be treated with respect and kindness when suffering through any illness.
I’ll get off my soap box now.
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