Who Is Stripping?
About Me always sounds so in your face - but having read lots of Blogs, it’s what everyone says - and I’ve always been one to follow the crowd.
Who am I?
I think the day we can answer that without hesitation, is the day we wil be well along the road to success. At the moment, I hesitate. I can’t decide if I should be 100% honest, or if I should add a touch of who I want to be.
I PROMISE to be 100% honest on this blog / site, so here goes.
The facts.
I am a ‘Morbidly Obese’ 33 yr old, full time working single mother. Home owner (well I have 1 brick and the bank owns the rest). Up to my eyeballs in debt. Fearful of never finding my ‘niche’ in life. I used to sing for a living, but gave up way before I should have.
I’m a goal setter and when I really work on it, I achieve them. If there is even a sprinkling of doubt though, the goal crumbles around me and with it even more of my self confidence.
I’m passionate about my family and friends, but often feel that I neglect them, without meaning to.
Here’s a big one. I’m humiliated that I am doing this blog. Then why do it you ask? Well, I’m also proud that I am going to stop hiding behind the I’m fine with my weight comments. I always used to say my weight didn’t bother me as I could still dress well, had a job, friends and got laid. Well, it’s confession time, it’s always upset me.
I suffer from the odd blue day, but who doesn’t?
That’s another passion. I really want to know why we do what we do, especially when it comes to food, drug and alcohol issues.
I believe everyone in the world should have an opportunity to go on a journey of self discovery, with a coach, psychologist, friend, psychiatrist, mentor etc etc.
I’m scared that my weight will start to cause health issues for me and the big (all puns intended) thing with that, is if anything happens to me, who will love my daughter like I do?
I’m scared when she asks me to sit her paddle pool that I will break it. Scared when we go to a cafe and the chairs look flimsy. Scared that I won’t be able to share all of the amazing things that life has to offer with her. I’m scared that she will one day stop looking at me with unconditional love in her eyes as it will have been exchanged for embarrassment and shame.
I’m a dreamer who will try anything once, but generally likes to take the easy road.
Believe me, I know I am doing the hardest thing I have ever done, but I am hoping with all my heart that by sharing this journey I will not only help myself achive my goals, but I may inspire someone to get on the road to physical and mental fitness.