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Dating when overweight.

blogadmin — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 04:03:11 +0000

online casino???????mach-zehnderQuestions about it, dating when overweight and dating as a single parent are not the easiest things in the world to do…..but hey…..you gotta get out there. Well that’s my opinion anyway.

I didn’t want to get back into dating, after the last fiasco, because no matter what is said, you can’t help but think that your weight is the issue. Yet, I don’t want to try and find a partner on a website for men that like bigger woman such as BBW because I would like to find someone that likes me for me – not because of the size of my arse. Any ideas anyone?

Amazing what a makeup artist can achieve

blogadmin — Sun, 13 Apr 2008 23:54:27 +0000

This was on my Fun Wall on Facebook. I don’t normally share stuff, but maybe I should.

It’s mean and nasty – but hey, it made me feel better about my lack of stage makeup today.

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Happy Valentines Day

blogadmin — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 09:53:26 +0000

Valentines Day is a crazy day for any person (women especially), but for a fat girl it can be terrible. You see all these skinny malinkis walking down the street carrying huge stupidly expensive flowers and you think to yourself, if only I was thin, I would have been sent some. Then you get depressed that you don’t have to go home and get dressed up to be taken out for a romantic dinner, so you probably eat or drink too much at home by yourself while you plan how you are going to drop weight. Been there, done that.
Today I did different.
I made myself look so nice for work, and my daughter told me I was beautiful. First time she has ever said it and it was totally spontanious. Do you think I walked on a cloud all day after that? You bet ya! That was better than a rose anyday. I’m not knocking flowers, however that genuine display of love was far better than a flower bought because that’s what you do on Valentines Day.
The big change was today I did stuff for me, I went to the gym, I felt great in my outfit and I learnt a great lesson – you can make yourself feel just as special, if not more than someone else can.
In the end I did get a Valentines message, so I did get to share in some of the love conditioning of the world…..it gave me a huge smile and another boost of confidence……so I guess I won’t turn down any flowers if they come my way.

Shift your thinking

blogadmin — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 10:42:07 +0000

What did I do tonight?? Well it wasn’t exactly exciting enough to cause fireworks, but it made me feel great.
I cleaned out my wardrobe.
All the clothes that made me look or feel fat and frumpy went in a pile.
All the clothes I can fit into went at one end, the ones with a few more kilos to go in the middle and the one that are 20kgs off down the other end.
I tell you, you need to do this. It’s like I’ve been shopping, I now have all these extra clothes to wear.
I needed to actually try everything on as I still think I’m bigger than I am and those ‘nicer’ clothes won’t fit me. They do. Now I have no excuse not to wear nice clothes every day. I needed to actually see for real that I wasn’t 133.5kgs any more. I know the scales say I’m 118.5kgs, but I still felt so much bigger than I am. I needed to shift my thinking.
This was a very liberating and uplifting feeling.
Anyone who has been up and down the weight see saw would know this feeling. You have clothes in your wardrob in 6 sizes and you feel like you have nothing to wear. It just takes a little organisation, but I swear you will have clothes that will help motivate you to stay on track. I’m not talking that elusive little black dress that you last wore in 1995, I’m talking current clothes that will help you feel like you fit in again, RIGHT NOW!!!!!
That’s the important thing. You want to start feeling fashionable, sexy and attractive along your weight loss journey, not just at the end….because guess what!!! There is no end to a weight loss journey. If you have ever been overweight you are on that journey for life baby. You may not be actively shedding weight but maintaining your goal weight will require just as much effort. I know this because I’ve lost weight, not made the effort and put it all back on again. Never again!!!!